Time and Time Again

I've been told, time and time again, the same things.

Be grateful for what you have.
Have a positive attitude.
Live your life to the fullest.
Don't settle for second best.
Always have faith and trust.
Do good.

I think I'm finally understanding why people tell me these things. In short, this last year has not been the best. It's been rough. Between injuries, catty girls, grades slipping up in math class, and other things, it's been hard to deal with. But with help from my friends and family and church leaders...I have a feeling this year is going to be better. Starting out as a junior didn't sound to fun. It would be the year that I'd take my major classes, and I would always be about school. Right now is when we have to start looking at college, and I didn't think I was ready for it.
It's been a week and a half since my junior year has officially started. And so far...it's already a million and one times better. Even if I don't have the same plans, same friends, or even same dreams that I used to, I have  a better look at life.
I'm making the decision now to have a positive attitude about this year. I want to look at my classes and say, yes they may not be the highest classes, but they are the classes that I know I can get through if I work and keep up on my studies. I want to look at people I used to be friends with, and still think of them as wonderful children of God.I want to go through this soccer season, knowing that my team is going to dominate and that we can really go the whole way.
This year is going to be my year. I am going to do whatever I can to experience the life of a teenager. Go to parties, make life long friends, find out who I really am.
Some days will be rough. I know that. But in the end, I know what I'm supposed to be doing, and where I am supposed to be going. That is what will keep me pushing until the end.

I hope someone out there reads this. I hope it is something they can use in their own life. Don't be afraid to take chances this (school) year.

“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.”

I know this year may seem rough, but you can do it. I believe in you out there. I believe in myself. That's all you can ask for at the end of the day.

For Those Who Are Struggling

Check out this article on KSL.com. I think it might help some of you out. You can look it up Here

I Am From

I am from:

• Looking through a camera
• Old skits, vacations, tears, laughter
• Summer under bright stars
• Meeting the crazy people I trust my secrets and hopes with
• Relationships and heartache, but pulling through
• Running races and scoring goals
• My Teams;My Family; My Friends; My school; My Life.

These are what make me...me.
An English assignment we had to do, that I found interesting. Where and what are you from?

He's Here!

Who, may you ask?

Why...only my best friend in the whole wide world!

Yes, indeed, it is Trevor Rasmussen!

We have been best friends since 3rd grade.

Our story is that we met in Spectrum, an advanced placement schooling class.

We were about 8 or 9 years old.

We had that class together..then 4th grade.. Even 5th grade. We ironically had 6th grade together. Same teachers, same classes, same best friend.

We moved onto Junior High together. We didn't get to talk as much, but we never wavered as being best friends. 

He sadly moved at the end of 8th grade to Maryland. One of the hardest things I've had to do was say goodbye to him.

He visited last year in July. I wasn't able to see him, because I was in California for a soccer tournament. You can imagine how hard that was for me.. I'd have to wait another year to *hopefully* see him.

This year, his family got the opportunity to come out and visit again.

I have been planning on seeing him for months now.

And today was the day he came to visit me.

I was shaking when I saw him. It had been 2 years to long. 

We hugged, I cried, we hugged some more. 

We went to visit our old friend Josh Brough. 

It was always us three. Trevor, Josh, and I. All the way through elementary school. Those two were my best friends and I'd trust them with anything. Once we started talking...it was like old times. Like nothing had changed. I missed it so much. 

Even though he lives states and hours away, I still am close to this kid. I'm so grateful that I got to grow up with him. He is a big part of my life, even if we don't see each other a ton. I adore him and can't wait to see him again. 

Today was the best day I've had in a LONG time.

 <3

I've Learned Something

At this time.. boys aren't even worth it. It's safer to be friends than anything serious right now. I've lost friends from relationships. The boys I have been with, and even their friends I got close with.
I had a little summer fling this week. Just a boy I liked, and he like me too. We were going to try out a relationship. The only rule we had was if it was going to hurt our friendship, we'd forget the relationship and stick with being friends. I felt we were forgetting the friendship in the midst of the flirting. I told him that honestly. Now, we aren't on speaking terms. He is making it seem like we were married and I wasn't a good wife... How does that work out? It wasn't even a serious relationship. Whatever though, it's his loss, right?
My friend has been struggling with a boy of her own. They had a thing this summer but now it seems to be dwindling... Does she try and mend the relationship? Or just go back to normal and be friends?
 Why in the world must we deal with this? We put our trust in a boy, and he goes and takes our heart out and just plays around with it.

Girls, take pride in who you are. Don't let a boy dictate your life. You are strong and capable of living your own life. Don't depend on having a boyfriend. We have to stick together as females.

It's Okay To Not Be Happy

Sometimes, life is hard. It hits you over and over again, trying to tear you down. Right now, I have friends that are struggling. I'm struggling. Things just don't ever seem to get easier. People expect you to be happy all the time. Sometimes...it's just not possible. It's ok to be sad. It's ok to be angry. Just know that things are going to look up, and one day, through all of the madness, life will be happy and good again.

I Got You

Marko and Melanie from So You Think You Can Dance

Don't forget the lyrics, ok?

And So It Begins...

High school season is officially here.

Welcome back 2 hour practices.

Hello workouts everyday of the week.

Well, hi there 31 new girls that have to learn to work together.

I made Syracuse High School's girls soccer team for the second year in a row.

I'm so excited to be playing again this year. I've gotten to know the vetrans from last year and we are all pretty tight. Hopefully we can get used to the new freshys and sophmores.

Bad news. First practice of the official high school season, and I messed up my hips...again. I was running and I felt something pull and pop and move. The pain was prominant in the inital moment, but it's started to die down. Fingers crossed that they start to heal, and not decrease in health.

On a side note...10 days until Trevor is home... I can't wait to see him!