What I See In You

We all have a different perspective of the world, people, and life in general.

"..The tragic or the humorous is a matter of perspective.."
- Arnold Beisser
Things can go bad, or change into completely hilarious moments...How do you see them?

What is the first thing you do when you see someone?  You judge them. No matter how hard you try not to, you do it. What do you think when you see them?
I have a straightforward perspective or "judgement" when it comes to some people.
My friends, for example. When I look at them, I judge them by how they act or what they do and say.
My friends are the greatest people I know. I look up to them. When you see a group of teenagers, normally people get annoyed. When you look at the people I am with, I can see the light of Christ in them. They care so much for the gospel, and for the Savior. Taking a look at the individuals I interact with, I notice their attitudes. You don't hear them harping on someone that isn't in our group, or just like us. They care abut others.
I am proud to say that they can take a bad situation, and turn it to good. They make you feel safe. They make you feel welcome. These are the people I am with most of the time. As they say, "You can't judge a book by its cover". It's true. If you were to judge a group of about five girls and fifteen plus boys, you would think they were annoying. Thats where our perspective changes. I can see kids of the church, with warm hearts and open arms. I can see young adults that are going through hard, difficult situations and are trying their hardest. I see a group of friends that believes in staying close and being there for each other. I couldn't ask for better people to be friends with. They teach me so much, and they are examples to others.

Don't forget...Others have a perspective of you too. How do you want to be seen? As a quiet, shy person? Or someone who isn't afraid to be themselves? Present yourself how you want to be seen.

Just A Thought

We all are need of some HOPE right now.

Hope that we can make it one more week of school. . .

Hope that we can make the most of our short summer. . .

Hope that things will start to look up. . .

I'm not the only one that has been struggling for these past few weeks. Right now, I'm sending out my love and some hope to those that need it. You can push through the trials, you can look past the bad in life.

I have faith in you out there. It seems like all hope is gone, but trust me, it's not the end of the world.

You have your friends, your family, and the gospel.

Don't give up...Keep pushing on.

You can do it.

The Pick-Me-Up

Have you ever gotten a sweet surprise? Something to just make you smile? Maybe even cry because it's exactly what you needed, at the exact right time? In my last post, I told you guys about how I had been having a hard time. Low self-esteem problems, and just stress beyond belief. 

I walked out of school today, having an ok day, and went straight to my car like I normally do. I got in, didn't notice anything...and what do I see when I sit in the drivers seat?

This cute poster someone had made for me. I was so confused! I took it out and read all of the comments...

Reasons Why Courtney Hamilton Is AMAZING!:

She is SUPER cute

Fun to be around

Smart

Easy to love

BEAUTIFUL

Full of engery

Etc...

I don't know who did it. But I am so grateful. I got home to finish reading it (because reading a huge poster while driving? Not a good idea). I started to cry, yet again. To know that someone would do that for me changes my look at a lot of things. This was honestly one of the greatest things anyone could have done for me. 

I don't know if the person (or people) who did this will read this post, or ever know how grateful I am for them...But thank you. You picked me up, when I was really at a low point. You made my whole day turn around, and it means more to me than you'll ever know. 

It's been a rough day

"There are those women of misfortune laden with despair, sorrow, lack of love at home, or the guilt and consequences from having trodden in forbidden paths. Away from the community of the Saints, where succor can be provided, they await being befriended by one in whom they can confidently place their injured trust and who can restore their self-esteem and tenderly accompany them back to truth and light.
There are many sweet, faithful daughters of our Heavenly Father who bless our lives. May we better understand them  and be as sensitive to their needs as was the Savior when He instinctively sensed the touching of the hem of His garment and the faith of a long-diseased woman behind Him. As Jesus said to her, so may our actions affirm to our noble sisters: "Daughter, be of good comfort" (Matt. 9:22)"

I won't go into detail, it's to personal. But tonight, I went over to my best friend (Joshua Parker Brough)'s house. I don't know what caused me to start, but I randomly started crying when he asked if I was okay. There is a lot of stuff that has gone on that I've been struggling with. I don't know why I felt pressed to tell him all of it. I bawled my eyes out for a little over an hour. Josh just sat and listened, and listened some more. After I had caught him up on stuff and had finally stopped crying...he said he wouldn't be the person he is today if it weren't for me. Of course, I started crying again. This kid has helped me through so much, and I wanted to thank him. When I got home, he sent me the quote listed above(^). That made me cry...yet again.

Thank you to my best friend in the whole world. I don't think he realizes it, but he is the greatest example I have. I doubt you'll read this Broughykins, but I just wanted to tell you I love you. Thank you for listening to me complain and whine for an hour. It meant a lot, and I don't think I can ever say thank you enough. You're the best, and I'm so thankful and lucky to have a friend like you.

Decisions, Decisions

Sitting here in class, I'm thinking about things that need to be decided.
I have the oppurtunity to try out for a different soccer team, The Strikers. I've been offered a spot, offered a captians badge (if any of you know me, that's what I'm best at), and a starting position I want. ANY position I want.
But I'm starting to fall in love with my original team, The Ogden Outlaws again. For the past few months, I have been going through so many trials. Not getting my starting spot in a tournament, girls quitting, friends leaving the team, and my coach was taking a lot of his anger out on me. I went through a lot, and it didn't seem fair to me. Girls wanted my spot and he let them take it. I wanted to just quit soccer all together. But now, these last few games we have been in, I've gotten better. Mike told me he was so ecstatic with how I have been playing. He has been waiting for me to start dominating again, and that's what I'm doing. Our game against Avalanche on Tuesday was a hard one. Out of all 11 players on our field, Mike stopped..yelled "Hamilton!"..and stood and started clapping. He has never once done that for another player. He compliments me now, he treats me like an important part of the team again. I don't know if it's just because I told him I was done with all the stress he put me through, or if he really is impressed by me now. He is PROUD of me now.

So as you can see, I'm at a crossroads.
Choose the team that is a division lower than us, where I don't know anyone and it's not as serious.
Or the team I've grown up with and through the trials and tribulations things are starting to look up again.

When the decision is made, you'll be the first to know. Wish me luck!

Why Do We Have To Grow Up?

Its hitting me hard right now. . .
We are all growing up to fast. School is ending, competitive soccer is coming to a close in a few months, friends are moving on and leaving.
Why does it have to be so hard to let go of the things we love?
I'm not ready to grow up. I like the fact that we are all young, naive, and have crazy adventures. I'm not ready to give all of that up. I want to stay young and random.
Remember the times we all liked each other?
Everyone was friends?
The hardest thing about saying goodbye, was you weren't done with your game yet?
We will always remember the moments of fun, love, pain, fear, regret, and hope. But I'm not ready to just 'remember' those times. I want to keep making them and experiencing them as a teenager.
Let me make mistakes and learn from them.
We can't all be perfect, and we need room to realize what we mess up on.
I know growing up is part of life, obviously. But I don't want to grow up so fast. I want to take time and let it all sink in. This is the time that we should be living to the fullest.
Why does it have to be so hard to let go of it all?
We are only Sophmores in high school. . . How are we supposed to know exactly what we want to do in 10 years?

Growing up will be worth it in the long run, but just give me time to be a kid.

*10 Truths Tuesday*

I'm going to start a new thing for me. 

10 Truth Tuesdays.

Rules: 

You must have 10 truths

You must be with out a doubt, undeniably, one hundred percent, truthful.

You can not be worried about what others will say.

My 10 truths?

-I'm scared I'm not good enough at most things. 

-People try to change me. I let it get to me and change myself. It takes awhile to go back to the Original Me.

-I don't feel like my friends care to much. I know they are there for me, but I am there for them more than anything.

-My testimony has grown every passing day with any little miracle.

-I'm terrified to grow up. I want to stay little.

-I am one of the jealous types. I want what I can't have.

-My biggest wish is that I will be kissed in the pouring rain.

-My best friend is a boy that has always been there for me through anything.

-I would rather hang out with boys than girls.

-I wish I was more of a 'girly-girl'

Feel free to do your 10 Truths. Trust me, it makes you think.

Mother's Day

I dedicate this post to my lovely mother.
If it weren't for her, I wouldn't have grown up with someone:
STRONG
COURAGEOUS
SMART
FUNNY
AMAZING
BEAUTIFUL
BRILLIANT
BRAVE
ELEGANT
INSPIRATIONAL
Those are all the qualities I hope to receive from her.
She is the biggest part of my life, and I don't know what I would do without her.

Marilyn Monroe

"This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up becuase if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about."

Marilyn Monroe