Big Sister

I finally got a letter from my 'big sister' Brianna.
In July, she left for the Knoxville, Tennessee Mission for The Church Of Jesus Christ Of Later-Day Saints.
She is about 5 years older than me, but she has always been one of my best friends. When I was little, she adopted me as another sister. I have always looked up to her for being so strong, and being herself. She has been there for me through anything. I don't have any older siblings, so she was truly my sister.
Coming home today for lunch, I saw a letter on the table addressed to me. I freaked out. It was from her! I opened it and was so excited. In the letter, she wrote about how she was thinking about me, and how I needed some help with things. Its crazy, because I was in the process of writing her a letter already.
She is such an example to me. She has gone through a lot in her life, yet she always made it through. I'm grateful for the decision she made to go on a mission. It gives me more drive to better myself in the gospel, and want to share it.
I miss my 'big sister' and I'm so grateful that Heavenly Father sent me her way. I needed her in my life, and she will always be one of my best friends.
I'm so proud of her, and can't wait to see her in about a year!

A Good Pair Of Jeans And A T-Shirt

I love the nights where that is all you need. Throw on your favorite pair of jeans, a big t-shirt, and you are set. Not doing your hair, don't worry about make up, just get dressed and go. That is how it should be. Hassle-free.
I had such a fun night tonight with some friends that I don't hang out with to much anymore. It was great! Random conversations in the basement, boys in funny soldier outfits, quick runs to 7-11, Zoolander, and catching up on old times and fun memories. I am grateful for the friendships that I have made. I'm also grateful for the friendships I've lost. While sometimes it seems like they were needed at the time, I realized they don't matter. If they were supposed to be in my life, I would have been with them on a night like tonight. The people I was with tonight are amazing. I look up to each and every one of them. They are such examples to not only me, but people they meet everyday. Things have been rocky, but I think they are starting to look up.
One person I have to say I am so so grateful for, is my friend Trevor Dickson. We went through a rough patch where we weren't super close, and didn't talk a ton. But this last month has changed. We talk almost every day. We see each other at least once a week, it feels like. I can tell him anything. I know he is always there for me, and I am so thankful for him. And I'm grateful that Emily introduced us about a year (give or take a few months) ago. I don't know what I would do without some of these people in my life.

Everybody Has Been There

Every single person has had that time in their life..

where things don't go right.

people say nasty things.

you lose friends.

you don't feel pretty enough.

you don't fit in with the crowd.

bad hair days.

clothes don't fit.

you just want to cry.

Let me tell you something...Even though it seems hard now..It WILL get better.

You are strong. 

You are independent. 

People can't dictate your life.

Believe in yourself.

Because I believe in you.

Even though its not much, its still something to start with.

Everything has a happy ending. If things aren't ok, then you know its not the end.

Have faith. 

Don't let them rule over you.

You are going to be ok.

To The Gym!

Today... I have to express my gratitude... to the gym.
Funny, right?
Well, not so much.

Its been nearly two months since I have been allowed to run, play soccer, or really exert any kind of energy.
Well, as long as my physical therapist doesn't know, I went to the gym today for the very first time in the {almost} two months I was away.
And it was fabulous.

Ever have that day, where you realize everything is different?
You probably won't talk to him again, hang out with that group of friends, or even have someone to call?
Yeah. I had one of those days today.

So what do I do? Go and work out until I can't run anymore.

Now, it wasn't a lot of mileage or calorie burning. But it was more than I've done in a long time. And cut me some slack.. I'm realllly out of shape.

I just keep telling myself it's going to be okay...

I Just Need To

Its Tuesday?

10 Truths on Tuesday

1. I hate being sick. It sucks. 

2. My new Iphone is lovely. Thank you mom and dad.

3.If I could fix anything right now..it'd be my relationship with Joshua. I miss him a lot. 

4. People change. You can't help it. Friends are no longer friends anymore, and it sucks.

5. Nyquill make me happy when I feel under the weather.

6. Late night hot chocolate runs and a friend singing show tunes can change your whole mood.

7. I miss running. Two more weeks until I *may* be able to start again.

8. Friends come from places and experiences you would have NEVER thought.

9. Spandex = comfiest things to sleep in. EVER.

10. I think I have decided what I want to do when I grow up. Be a therapist/counselor/social worker. Any of those. Helpful tips are greatly appreciated. 

100th Post

Well.. Pretty self-explanatory. I have been blogging for a little over a year now, about random adventures that I have taken, things that have stuck out to me, and things that tell who I am. So seeing as it is November, the month of thanking and giving, I'll do a post of what I'm thankful and grateful for.

*I'm grateful for my family. That laughs, the fights, the weird conversations. Carson, Gracie, my mom and dad, and even our three little dogs.

I'm grateful for soccer. Even though it has taken me on a roller coaster for 11 years, but it has defined me and helped me find out who I am and what I love.*

*I'm grateful for my talent in running. Without it, I would just be ordinary.

*I am so thankful we have music. Sometimes, you just need some Taylor Swift to cry to, or some Eminem to yell to. 

My friends. Things have been rough, but I'm grateful for the good times, the trials, and all of the memories we have made.*

*My house. My clothes. My I-Pod. Shoes. Purses. Make-up. Cleats. Pictures. My tooth brush. My car. Posters. Quote blocks. My phone.

*I am so grateful for the gospel. Without it in my life, I would be lost. It has helped me so much these last few weeks and I am thankful for our prophets who have helped us.*

*The Book Of Mormom. I am so so so grateful for it. I am almost finished with it, and I have learned so much from it. Its crazy how a book can affect someones life so much.*

*The Temple. Its my castle, and I am going to go there one day.

I am so thankful for the men and the women that serve our country and keep us safe and free.*

*Here is a shocker : I am grateful for school. Without it, we would be so worse off. It is going to be worth it after we get those diplomas.

I'm grateful for those days where I can come home and sit in sweats, with my hair pulled back, and make up off and just relax.*

*I am thankful for the days that I realize I have a life and I'm doing something productive to help someone or do something.

I know there is a lot I missed. There is so much to be thankful for, and this is the time of the season to thank those that have helped you. 

Thank you to my friends. You've made me stronger. You have given me laughs and memories I will remember forever. Thank you to my family for not giving up on me when I've been at my lowest. Thank you Marilyn Monroe for not being a size two and making everyone else feel more comfortable about their bodies. Thank you to The Redeemer for giving his life so we could be here and have these amazing opportunities.