It's Finally Over

2011... I can't say I'm sad to see you go. You definitely gave me a run for my money. Half the time, I wasn't sure how I was going to pull through. Anything and everything that could go wrong...did. Friends? Definitely lost quite a few. Stuff happened. People changed. We all did. You can't change that. I miss my best friend. I will always love him, but right now we aren't supposed to be together. So I'll wait. When he is ready to talk, he knows I'm here. To sit, to listen, to talk, and to just be us again. I love him and miss him. It's been weird not having him around so much. I can't get used to it. We will be ok in the future. I know we will. Time will only tell, I guess. Soccer? Craziest year we have EVER had. Between my hips finally giving out on me, me switching teams back and forth a few times, and a near winless high school season, I had a lot of chances of growth and opportunity. Family? We are stronger than ever. It's just us 5 here. My parents, Carson, Gracie, and me. We are our own support system and we have needed each other the last little while. My aunt and uncle have separated. My cousins and I have become a lot closer since then, even if they do live across the country.
All in all? I'm just walking away from 2011, thankful for the experiences and thankful that it made my family closer than ever. That year could have been a lot worse, but it also could have been a heck of a lot better.
2012, please be good to me. I have high expectations. Hopefully our house will sell and we can move somewhere we like to call "home" still. If not, fingers crossed my parents let me transfer schools. I would do anything to get out of Syracuse. I'm not running away, I'm just looking for something new and better. This being the year that I become a senior, that I turn 18, is a big year for me. I am growing up and realizing that there is so much more to life than popularity and high school.
Have a good year. Everyone out there. I am sending love and hope that you can make this year all that you want it to be. Good luck. Don't forget, even when you feel like you are at the end of the road, things will get better. Everyone has a "happily ever after" planned. If things aren't ok, they aren't done yet. You'll be okay. I know it.  

100th Post

Well.. Pretty self-explanatory. I have been blogging for a little over a year now, about random adventures that I have taken, things that have stuck out to me, and things that tell who I am. So seeing as it is November, the month of thanking and giving, I'll do a post of what I'm thankful and grateful for.

*I'm grateful for my family. That laughs, the fights, the weird conversations. Carson, Gracie, my mom and dad, and even our three little dogs.

I'm grateful for soccer. Even though it has taken me on a roller coaster for 11 years, but it has defined me and helped me find out who I am and what I love.*

*I'm grateful for my talent in running. Without it, I would just be ordinary.

*I am so thankful we have music. Sometimes, you just need some Taylor Swift to cry to, or some Eminem to yell to. 

My friends. Things have been rough, but I'm grateful for the good times, the trials, and all of the memories we have made.*

*My house. My clothes. My I-Pod. Shoes. Purses. Make-up. Cleats. Pictures. My tooth brush. My car. Posters. Quote blocks. My phone.

*I am so grateful for the gospel. Without it in my life, I would be lost. It has helped me so much these last few weeks and I am thankful for our prophets who have helped us.*

*The Book Of Mormom. I am so so so grateful for it. I am almost finished with it, and I have learned so much from it. Its crazy how a book can affect someones life so much.*

*The Temple. Its my castle, and I am going to go there one day.

I am so thankful for the men and the women that serve our country and keep us safe and free.*

*Here is a shocker : I am grateful for school. Without it, we would be so worse off. It is going to be worth it after we get those diplomas.

I'm grateful for those days where I can come home and sit in sweats, with my hair pulled back, and make up off and just relax.*

*I am thankful for the days that I realize I have a life and I'm doing something productive to help someone or do something.

I know there is a lot I missed. There is so much to be thankful for, and this is the time of the season to thank those that have helped you. 

Thank you to my friends. You've made me stronger. You have given me laughs and memories I will remember forever. Thank you to my family for not giving up on me when I've been at my lowest. Thank you Marilyn Monroe for not being a size two and making everyone else feel more comfortable about their bodies. Thank you to The Redeemer for giving his life so we could be here and have these amazing opportunities.