Just a Few Pictures. More To Come

I haven't posted pictures in forever... So that's my focus for the next few days!

Well.. this is one of my best friends. His name is Jaden Ralphs, and he is basically a stud. He sings, plays soccer, and our parents are basically best friends. We've known each other for years, and our parents have known each other since before we were born. We are about 6 days apart in age. We went out a few weekends ago on a date. SO FUN. We made breakfast, went ice skating, and got ice cream. I don't know where I would be without this kid. Even when we haven't seen each other for weeks, he still calls just to check in with me. He's the best!

Keller chose this filter..so don't judge my crazy eyes. This is my 7 year old little brother. And no.. he's not really my brother. But I've known him since before he was born, and I baby sit him all the time. I think I count as a big sister. He speaks Chinese. He's pretty dang cool and he will be a heartbreaker in high school.

We went to St. George over Spring Break. Emily, Jaycee, Maggie, and I. On Tuesday morning, we went and did baptisms in the St. George temple. One of the coolest experiences! I absolutely loved it! Waking up at the crack of dawn to go was so worth it!

We drove through Arizona and Nevada just for fun.. Bear Paw for breakfast. Red Robin for dinner. Temple trip. Meeting friends on the freeway. We did EVERYTHING you could do in St. George. It was honestly one of the best spring breaks I've ever had. I love my friends. We all needed a weekend like this to just unwind. I couldn't have asked for a better senior spring break!

O4L

Outlaws for Life

I love my soccer sisters. Britt and Syd have signed to go and play in Nebraska. I'm so jealous. I would give anything to still be playing. I am so so proud of them, though! I love my sisters. We've been through way to much to ever leave each other. I'm grateful to have grown up with these girls.

(Syd, Kates, Britt, Me)

If you know Em and I, you know we are totally content with sitting in sweats, with our hair pulled up, no make up on, on a Saturday night. Sometimes we like to get ready, though! Ladies night while the boys were all at priesthood session. Grateful for my best friend. Not gonna lie, we are adorable. So boys... we are single. *hint hint*

Flashback to when my cousin and soccer girls were on TV for the USWNT soccer practice last summer. Meeting Abby Wambach, Megan Rapinoe, Heather O'Reily, and all of the team was one of the best days of my life. Honestly . I love the USWNT so much, it's ridiculous.

Pause On The Play

Okay. So pause on all the positive vibes. I need to vent.

If you've never played soccer, watched it, or taken referee classes... can you please SHUT UP?

Obviously you don't know what you're talking about. Offsides is NOT just a random call they make. It has actually reason. Sometimes it may not be the right call. But there is still justification behind it. You're an idiot if you think that just because someone got shoved, they should get a penalty kick. THAT IS NOT HOW IT WORKS.

Learn what stoppage time is. Oh, PLEASE learn what stoppage time is. It isn't just 'extra time'. It's the time you get back from subbing, injuries, all of that jazz. Stop yelling at the ref. Yeah, they are stupid most of the time. But still. They are trying. Just because they make a call against you, doesn't mean you can sit and insult them for the rest of the game.

I hate people that act like they understand my sport. Golden Goal. Please don't just call it more game time. It's not. IT IS GOLDEN GOAL. THERE IS A NAME FOR IT.

I played soccer for 12 years. I'm pretty sure that most soccer girls and guys want to kick you in the jugular if you sit and act like you know what you're talking about. Because half of the time... You have no idea. So please do the world a favor and either learn about soccer, or keep your mouth shut. Don't make fun of a player because they just made a 70 yard sprint and lost the ball. It's hard work out there. You have absolutely no clue what it's like.

There is my rant for the day. Get educated about an amazing sport or shut up. That's all there is to it. Thank you.

Sincerely,
A frustrated soccer player.

Junior Year

Well here we are. At the close of another school year. And I am not ashamed to say I'm happy to see it go. This has been the craziest, most emotionally, mentally, and physically draining year of my life. Coming into this year, I thought it would be great. I would have all my friends, soccer would be perfect, and I would just be a regular teenage girl. Boy was I wrong! I don't know what happened, but people changed. And that's okay! Everyone does, and most of the time it is for the better. Personally, I know I changed A LOT. But it's made me a stronger person inside and out. I'm no longer friends with a lot of the people I was closest with. Would I do anything for them on anyday? Absolutely. Even if we don't talk now, they were a big part of my life and I'm always going to be there for them.
Emotionally...this year was hard for everyone is Davis Country. Specifically Clearfield and Syracuse High. Between losing our friends due to suicide, it took a toll on a lot of us. It made me realize that life is so fragile. You have to be conscious with everything you say to someone. You don't know the battles they are currently fighting. Tanner, Sam, Zack...you boys are always in my heart. I miss you all so much. I know you guys are looking over us though and sending us your love.
I lost my best friend this year. Nothing happened to him, we just grew apart. And it eats at me ever single day. I still have hope that one day we will work out our issues and be able to talk again. It's been officially three months since we've spoken. 9 years down the drain it feels like. I still love him to death. And he will always hold a special place in my heart that no one can fill. Love you, Broughykins. I hope you are doing well and everything is okay.

Soccer has been a whirlwind this year. High school season we should have dominated, but sadly struggled throughout the whole season. I definitely made some amazing friends and grew stronger. I've made the decision I am done with soccer. I don't have the drive for it anymore. I love my comp team with all my heart, but I don't love the sport. I've made the decision I am going to run cross country. I love it and I know I'm good at it. I think it will be such a good experience for me. I have one tournament with my comp team left.. we will see how it goes. It will be an emotional time for a lot of the girls. We are all sisters. We used to be so distant from each other, but now we all are so close. They were my best friends when I didn't like myself, my city, or my school.

Best friends always. I love my girls, my coach, and what I gave 11 years of my life to. I'm grateful for the experiences I had from this whole thing. I wouldn't take it back for anything.

It's not that school was hard this year. It was just draining. It seemed that no matter what, I couldn't agree with my Chemistry teacher. That took a toll on me and the entire class. No one wanted to be there. It seemed that everything just wore me out. Especially after having mono, strep, AND bronchitits. After that, I just couldn't focus. Those three months of being sick were horrible. I kept my grades up though, which I thought was a stressful task. I've come to the point where I wear jeans and a soccer shirt to school. And MAYBE mascara. I know, I've been looking lovely. But I just don't care anymore!

I'm so grateful for the gospel in my life. This year has been a test to see what I can live through. I don't know where I would be without the Church in my life. I'm in the middle of the Book of Mormon for the second time. I am catching things I didn't see or understand the first time I've gone through it. I'm grateful for a gospel that allows me to repent and know of the atonement. My life would be flipped all around with it as a steady rock.

Junior year, GOODBYE. It is time for us to part.. Thankfully. Summer? Be good to me. I want to be a teenager and have one of the most unforgettable summers yet. Senior year? Bring it on. :)

The happiness of life is made up of minute fractions—the little soon-forgotten charities of a kiss, a smile, a kind look, a heartfelt compliment in the disguise of a playful raillery, and the countless other infinitessimals of pleasurable thought and genial feeling.
-Samuel Taylor Coleridge

To Catch You Up

I know. I've been missing for weeks. I promise I have a good excuse! My computer crashed in my room. I've been living off of my phone and NOOK for weeks. It is quite the adjustment. When I last wrote, it was about soccer. About how they were basically my only friends and my sisters. Then I posted the funny video and picture of what my life is. A lot has happened since all of that.
Sadly, we lost two young teens in the end of February. Tanner Birch and Sam Rodemack. I knew both of these boys. I met Tanner while I was on a date and he was working at Neilson's Frozen Custard. I got his number and we started talking. I came to find out I was close friends with his brother Logan. Sam and I had all of our I.B. classes together in junior high. Sam was the kid you could always turn to if you needede something. Whether it was just a hug or a piece of 5Gum. They both took their lives in a matter of three days. Tanner on a Sunday, and Sam on a Wednesday. These boys are missed every single day. People that didn't even know them were heartbroken. It was a rough week for the kids in the Clearfield and Syracuse area. We came together and worked through it though. Those two boys will always be remembered for what they did for everyone in their life. There isn't a day that goes by where they aren't missed like crazy.
Life is crazy. It is weird. Sometimes it seems like it is to hard to handle. I've lost a lot of friends this year. But I'm okay with it. I'm a better person without them. I've mended some friendships that I'm so grateful for in my life. I still miss certain people, and I probably always will. And I'm trying to get over it, it is just difficult. The house is still up for sale. I'm praying someone comes along looking for a nice house and they choose ours. It is definitely time for me to get out of Syracuse. Not my most favorite place. So if any lovely bloggers are looking for a beautiful house, message me and I will hook you up!
I love my soccer team. We keep getting closer and closer as the weeks go by. We just got back from San Diego. We went to play in the NOMADS soccer tournament. Don't ask how we did. It wasn't pretty. We had a crazy good time though. It was a vacation to be with our sisters. Story time. On Sunday night, it was April Fool's Day. We had just gotten back from team dinner at Cheesecake Factory and we weren't tired AT ALL. So we decided to all hang out. My group (Britt, Syd, Kates) all decided to go and chill in the Box Elder girls room. (Megan, Lana, Kaylie, Heather) When we got to their room, we discovered our coaches room was right next door. We just HAD to prank him. Two of our girls were starting to hop balconies to get onto his when he came out and freaked out at us. We needed a better plan. We got our assistant coach to call Mike out of his room. Once he was out, we had Syd and Kates hop the balcony again and see if his back door was open. It was locked. We gave them some soap and had them write a long note to him on his window. We had to find a way into his room! Britt and Katie ran down to the front desk to get a card. They said what room and what the it was under. They happily gave us a card, thinking we were innocent girls. We called housekeeping asking to bring two rolls of toilet paper to the room so we could paper it and trash it. Once the girls got back up to the rooms, we snuck quietly into Mike's room. Then, disaster struck. We let Kates and Syd into the room, off of the balcony, and we went crazy. We flipped both of his matteresses, moved his t.v., threw clothes around, toilet papered everything, sprayed his cologne around, and tipped all the chairs over. While we were in the process of this, Megan ran in the room and locked the door behind her, scared out of her mind. We were puzzled. She told us to shut up and then explained what was going on. There was a security guard walking around our floor. We were convinced he was going to come and see what we were doing and we were going to get in HUGE trouble. We sat in silence for what felt like a year. Finally, we all ran to the 'safe room', or the Box Elder girls room. Megan's mom walked in and told us about the security guard. She said we were going to get in trouble if we destroyed Mike's room. ...To late for that. We heard a *tap**tap* at the door. We all went silent. Megan opened the door to see the security guard standing there. He was holding two rolls of toilet paper. He said housekeeping sent him to bring them up. We felt like such idiots. Once he left, we all busted up laughing. We heard Mike come back to his room. The second he opened his door, he started swearing up a storm. We had accomplished something genuis. We all ran into his room with our extra key card. He turned and looked at us, stunned that his little girls could pull off something so good. We ended up cleaning the room for him, terrified for what he had in store for us at practice later in the week. In the morning, a few of the parents stopped each girl and complimented us on our prank. It felt good.

I'm so grateful for everything I've been given. I know I don't say it enough but I am. I love my family, I love my soccer team, I love the few amazing friends I have in my life. I'm so thankful for the gospel in my life and a Savior that loved me enough to give his life.

What Soccer Girls Say

This is basically the story of my life. Pardon the language in here. If you are a soccer girl..you should be able to relate to almost everything in this video.

Why yes. I do play soccer. And I love every second of it.

Wait..You Don't Have Friends Either??

I promise. This isn't a post about not having friends. This is me, telling about my soccer team and how close we've all become. Right now, I'm playing for the Ogden Outlaws. My coach is Mike Hickman Jr. Playing on this team has been a whirlwind from day one. I came to this team when I was in 8th grade. They were still Rampage when I came. Most of the girls had already been playing together since they were about 8. So you can imagine how alone and awkward I felt showing up to that first indoor practice. No one talked to me. I had to be partnered with people instead of choosing a group. It took only a few weeks to really connect with those girls. To be honest, I didn't like a lot of them. They thought they were all that, but so did I. We clashed. I later became a captain on this team. I stayed captain for about three and a half years. In between those years, we switched over to the Ogden Outlaws, where my coach had played as a semi-pro. We loved it! It was so much better than the Rampage Club.
So..to talk about the present day. Our team has been going through a lot lately. Between girls quitting, a lot of us getting really sick (Me with strep/mono/who knows what it was, Britt with pneumonia, Searle with whatever she has), then with injuries (Me-hips-out for two months Sage-broken elbow-out for 6-8 weeks Katie-hips/hamstrings-lets be real. she is out every three months for something new.) We have had a hard time getting together and actually connecting again. We've had girls come and go, and as of right now we have about 4-5 of us from the original Rampage team. Everyone else is new. It was hard to get to know everyone and finally trust them, but we did it.
Tonight it hit me. We have a year left with this team before we all go our separate ways. Some of us to go play college ball, some to just study in school, and others will be starting a family. It's just crazy how old we all are! As a team, we've all connected finally. Some of these girls have turned into my best friends. We are all at different schools. Katie and I at Syracuse. Britt at Roy. Allie, Sage, and Kates at Weber, and so on and so forth. It's hard to get together when we all live so far away.
Tonight while we were at practice, we worked hard. We kicked butt while we conditioned and busted out to some serious tunes. Then we played a 3v3v3 scrimmage. Yet again, we totally killed it. My coach has been so happy with us for the last couple weeks. If you know him, that rarely ever happens. Nearing the end, we all decided to play more games instead of shooting. We were waiting for Mike to set up the drill when we all started juggling. While we were juggling, the topic of school and friends was brought up.Everyone at once, it seemed, chimed in about how they don't really have friends at their school. Thinking we were the only ones, this surprised us all. Truth be told, that is how it is for all of us. I hang out with Katie at school, Brittany on the weekends. At most, all of us only have about 3 really good friends besides the team. I think that made us all realize that we are so much alike, that it's easy to see how we all can be best friends at soccer, and not worry about having other friends outside of the team.
We kept juggling for about 10 more minutes. Mike joined in. The drill was set up, but we avoided it and just kept messing around. This doesn't happen all that much. We all tried to one up each other with tricks and moves, hit each other (Britt and Mike..) and just chatted. With five minutes left of practice, Mike asked if we wanted to play any games anymore. In unison, we all shouted, "NO!". So we carried on with our little game and bonding time.
All those girls on my team mean so much to me. I see them as friends, but also as family. I know if I need anything, they are just a phone call away. I guess that's what you get when you spend so much time with a group of crazy girls, and a coach who is a little crazier than us.
I love my Outlaws

100th Post

Well.. Pretty self-explanatory. I have been blogging for a little over a year now, about random adventures that I have taken, things that have stuck out to me, and things that tell who I am. So seeing as it is November, the month of thanking and giving, I'll do a post of what I'm thankful and grateful for.

*I'm grateful for my family. That laughs, the fights, the weird conversations. Carson, Gracie, my mom and dad, and even our three little dogs.

I'm grateful for soccer. Even though it has taken me on a roller coaster for 11 years, but it has defined me and helped me find out who I am and what I love.*

*I'm grateful for my talent in running. Without it, I would just be ordinary.

*I am so thankful we have music. Sometimes, you just need some Taylor Swift to cry to, or some Eminem to yell to. 

My friends. Things have been rough, but I'm grateful for the good times, the trials, and all of the memories we have made.*

*My house. My clothes. My I-Pod. Shoes. Purses. Make-up. Cleats. Pictures. My tooth brush. My car. Posters. Quote blocks. My phone.

*I am so grateful for the gospel. Without it in my life, I would be lost. It has helped me so much these last few weeks and I am thankful for our prophets who have helped us.*

*The Book Of Mormom. I am so so so grateful for it. I am almost finished with it, and I have learned so much from it. Its crazy how a book can affect someones life so much.*

*The Temple. Its my castle, and I am going to go there one day.

I am so thankful for the men and the women that serve our country and keep us safe and free.*

*Here is a shocker : I am grateful for school. Without it, we would be so worse off. It is going to be worth it after we get those diplomas.

I'm grateful for those days where I can come home and sit in sweats, with my hair pulled back, and make up off and just relax.*

*I am thankful for the days that I realize I have a life and I'm doing something productive to help someone or do something.

I know there is a lot I missed. There is so much to be thankful for, and this is the time of the season to thank those that have helped you. 

Thank you to my friends. You've made me stronger. You have given me laughs and memories I will remember forever. Thank you to my family for not giving up on me when I've been at my lowest. Thank you Marilyn Monroe for not being a size two and making everyone else feel more comfortable about their bodies. Thank you to The Redeemer for giving his life so we could be here and have these amazing opportunities. 

The Room Of The Writer

I am in the process of changing my room. I'm no longer the UNC, soccer, sticker fan I once was. I'm turning into a girl finally. I want my room clean, and red, black, and white are my favorite colors. This process...is taking a lot longer than expected. But I'm finally getting somewhere with it.

Here is the basis of my room.

I'm in love with Marilyn Monroe. She is my hero.

My cork board has all the pictures of people that are important to me.

My three pairs of cleats.

School supplies.

Race numbers.

More pictures.

It's all that I'm about.

I have a small room, so this is the other half.

My computer - Wallpaper of Kenny Wormald

Poster of Hollywood in the 50's

My church blocks, dance pictures, and birthday girls my aunt sends.

Last, but not least,

My Bountiful Temple block and my scriptures. They stay next to my bed every day.

I know it may not look like much, but this room is me.
Its all that I love, and its what I care about.

I'm going to be sad when I have to leave it in a few years.

Seminary And Such

I'm so grateful for the kids in my seminary class. They have helped me through a lot, and I'm becoming great friends with a lot of them.

I don't like girls to much. Boys are much better to hang out with. 

Jeff-Kole-Landon-Karson.

I love these boys

Karson is pretty much my favorite in that class. 

And Jeff likes to creep on us?

Cute Alex (Leah) and I (Rachel)

To bad no one in the bible likes Leah..

And Kars has learned from Jeff to creep..

Been friends since I was a freshman. I love her. 

Becka and I

Porcupine-Zebulun-Jeff

Owl-Asher-Courtney

We tend to get into trouble a lot...but we have a good time, 90 percent of the time

Spencer! My senior friend from Math and Seminary

He likes to go and get me hot chocolate during class,

and he likes to talk to me, even when we are supposed to be quiet.

He doesn't take pictures, so I should feel honored (-Says Spencer)

Devin! He is a stud, and I'm so glad we are friends, and in the same class
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College Survival Kit

This season has been real, it's been fun.

We played in the heat, and we played in the sun.

Here are some things to help get you through,

we know it will be hard, but we hope this will do.

There is some food for the road, some things for class.

REMEMBER: Always check for swoob and swass!

Good luck with your grades, good luck with your sports.

Don't forget our favorite Coach Schwartz!

If you ever have a problem, and need someone to call,

We'll be here to talk or just kick a ball.

Titans for life, never forget it.

Our season have been fun, we won't ever regret it.

I hope you don't cry, and this doesn't cause a fuss, 

But let's get out there, and just. . .

DO US!!!!

This is the poem Jaydin and I wrote for the seniors of the team this year. We made them little college survival kits with things to remember us by, and to help them out when they graduate. 

Love our Seniors

The Best Team That Couldn't Win

I play for Syracuse High Soccer.

This season was one of the most RIDICULOUS seasons I have ever played. That is including club ball.

Our record?

Preseason : 5-0

Regular season : 1-8-1

...Big difference.

We may not have done good, but we had to many good times. 

Our seniors were the best.

Friendships were made across the whole team. 

I'm going to miss these girls with all my heart 

<3

Kenna's 16th birthday!

We like to sit in our team lockers

We bring a LOT of stuff to our games. Our bags get realllllly heavy.

Sometimes, we all like each other, and are excited to play soccer

We own the back seat. Duncan and Court on the right side. 2nd to last seat, and 3rd to last seat. Syd and I on the left, same seats.

We go to March Of The Titans as a team. 

We play soccer on the track, boys against girls, keep away.

To many memories made.

We like to actually become friends, and sleep over together.

Syd, Me, Jayd, and Dunc like to wake up at 7 to go and watch our boys play soccer

Adrenaline <3

Party rock dancing and cheering

Best Friends Forever

We are ridiculously proud of the school we represent.

Every once in awhile, we wear normal clothes when we hang out.

We tie-dye shirts and make them match. Because we are a cute team and can do that.

90 percent of the time, we can't be serious.

Best friends anyone could ask for

Best friend Jaydin! 

Love my baby girl!

These girls are the young ones. We try to help them with life, soccer, and most importantly...BOYS!

My little Sisters and I

These seniors made this year worth while.

We had to wait. For a long time. For the buses. Very annoying.

Pictures of us on the bus are our favorites.

I'd date us...wouldn't you?

The rides got ridiculous. So did we.

We OWNED that back seat

Last games make me sad..

Never thought my best friends/sisters would be 2 years younger than me.

These girls became best friends.

Funny story. We make each other mad. So we start fighting...in the middle of the main hallway. When we are done, we look up to see all of the wrestlers had been watching..and they were clapping. Lesson learned : If you and your best friend are going to fight, do it where the wrestlers can see you. 

People finally realized how cool we were and joined in the party in the backseat

Our coach and our amazing seniors. We look up to them SO much <3

How they expect us to be serious...I will never know. Hopefully, we can be half of what our seniors meant to us.

Overall... Best season of my life. I made lasting friendships, amazing memories, and I'm starting to feel better about myself and my decisions.